I don't know

 I don't know if you ever look at this blog. I don't know if you're still alive. But I do think of you. I do miss you. I miss our friendship. I wonder if I wander through your mind once in a while. If I do I hope I only bring fond memories. If you are ever worried about it, please don't be. I am happy. Stressed, overworked, but happy. I feel happy every day. I don't know anything other than loving you and loving him. But I'm happy. I miss you, and hope you are well. I hope you found someone who doesn't hurt you when you love them full heartedly. I hope you found someone who loves you and is able to stay by your side. You were my first love. I will always love you. I will always want to talk to you and gossip about life. But I hope you are well. I hope your days come and gone with so much happiness you never second guess your decision. I know this is coming out of nowhere and you most likely don't even remember this blog. But I was speaking with my cousin about stories. Which caused me to go into my abandoned email(yes, I had to leave that one behind because you were that addicting) to find stories I wrote for you. Which caused me to log into this site because I had rough drafts of stories from when I was in middle-high school. But in doing all that, I was able to fondly look back and remember all the good times I had with you. Thank you for being such a big part of my teen and early adult years. I was truly blessed to have known you. You forever will deserve the world in my opinion. I hope life took you to where you needed to be. Happy belated birthday by the way. 

-T